Wednesday, August 25, 2010

Two Years Ago

Two years ago today I wrote my first blog post. I was still trying to conceive with my own eggs. At that point I’d had three IVF cycles cancelled before even starting due to cysts on my ovaries. The monstrously huge box of IVF meds had been staring at me for over three months. I’d participated on message boards and read some blogs, but was only beginning to understand the magnitude and power of this online community.

For years prior, I had sworn I would never have a blog. Hard to believe, huh? Well, there’s a story behind that. Five years earlier I went out with this guy. We really connected. We talked and talked and talked, we held hands, we kissed … a lot. Then things progressed the way they usually do in these situations. And he appeared to drop off the face of the earth. TWO WEEKS later he emailed me apologizing and saying he realized he was “emotionally unavailable.” I have to say, I was rather proud of my response. I told him that I’d already figured that out, and that I thought it was bad form to break up via email after sleeping together. Then, and here’s where the blog aversion comes in, he proceeded to chew over his feelings about us, wavering back and forth about whether to contact me or not, for weeks. He knew I had his URL. It was awful. And it’s one of the reasons that I chose to blog under a pseudonym. I’m very picky about who I share my URLs with outside of our community. Many people in my life know I have a blog, know that it was very instrumental in becoming pregnant with my daughter, but do not have access to it.

Anyway, back to my blogoversary! I am so glad I got past my blog aversion. This community has been the rock I’ve leaned on during tough times. Through this community, my donor found me! You've been with me through cancelled and failed cycles, watched pee stick lines get darker, betas rise, belly grow, and the incredible birth of my little girl. I announced her birth right here just 3 hours and 20 minutes after she took her first breath. It was amazing, a couple of weeks ago, to meet so many bloggers I’ve gotten to know these last two years. To introduce them to my miracle baby. To hug them and to meet some of their miracle children.

Many of my ALI blogger friends are still struggling to build their families. My blogoversary wish is for their success. My heart swells with every ALI blogger BFP and birth announcement. What a joy to celebrate the arrival of these very, very wanted children.

13 comments:

Mrs. Gamgee said...

Happy Blogoversary!

Who knew we could all get so much from an online community? I'm in awe of my bloggy-sisters (and brothers), including you, for sharing your stories, advice, and support. And I am thankful every day that I found the ALI community.

Baby Smiling In Back Seat said...

Happy Blogoversary! So glad that you started blogging, for your (and Sunshine's) sakes and for all of ours.

Kristin said...

Happy Blogoversary my dear Dora. Meeting you and Sunshine was one of the high points of my NY trip.

Tiara said...

Happy Blogoversary! I have gotten so much out of reading your blog & appreciate you putting yourself out there. Reading about successful SMC gives me the hope I can do it too.

Quiet Dreams said...

Happy Blogoversary to you! I'm also really glad you got over your aversion to blogging!

Me said...

Happy Blogoversary...you our the epitomy of our hope!

Shannon said...

Happy Blogoversary! What a great post in celebration of the day!

Jennifer said...

Happy Blogoversary, indeed!!!!

Anonymous said...

Awesome blog, I hadn't come across mypreconceivednotion.blogspot.com earlier during my searches!
Carry on the superb work!

battynurse said...

Happy Blogoversary!
I know that I too am continually amazed at the people I've met and connections formed from blogging. Hope someday we get to meet in person!

MyLifeMyWorld said...

Well Happy Blogoversary! 3 years is amazing, and it's great to see a sucess story from beginning to end. To know your not alone, and that there is hope!

Anonymous said...

Very Interesting!
Thank You!

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