Thanks to Dresden’s post, I
am now aware that The Deppster and I share a birthday month. Johnny is all of
17 days older than me. In June of 1963, the world was graced with both of us.
Yup, you did the math right. I’ll be turning 50 in less than a week. Just a
little over 2 months before my daughter starts pre-k. CRAZY! We had an awesome
party last Saturday. (Sorry, no pics yet. Waiting for the 3 people who took
pics to send them to me.)
I actually okay with this
BIG number. I have my Sunshine! I can only imagine how I’d feel about this
birthday if I had not managed to cross over from the Land of IF. She is truly
the light of my life. But on the other hand, I’m so exhausted! 3 1/2 is a hard
age. It feels like just about everything is a battle. She was awesome at the
party, because I let her have as many juice boxes and treats as she wanted.
Obviously, not an everyday thing. I know these battles are completely age
appropriate, and she’s probably easier than lots of other 3 year olds, but it’s
wearing me down. Working full time in a stressful environment and my chronic
pain issues make it that much harder.
But my big birthday gift to
myself should help. With my mom helping with Sunshine, I am scheduled for a
breast reduction in 3 weeks. I’ve wanted this for a long time. I was big
chested before, but between pregnancy and nursing, I went up about 3 cups sizes.
They did not go down after I weaned. Thankfully, my insurance company agrees
about the medical necessity, and approved the surgery. From what I hear from
people who’ve had this done, the mid and upper back pain, and shoulder and neck
pain will ease very quickly afterwards. I’m somewhat nervous about the
recovery, but I’ve been reminding myself that I recovered from my c-section
much more quickly than I expected, and much more easily than other women I
know.
The surgery is scheduled for
a Friday, and I’m taking the following week off work. My mom will have Sunshine
at her house for the week. I’m anticipating going to my mom’s after a few days
if I’m up to it, as I’m sure Sunshine will be jonesing for mama. She’s never
spent more than 3 nights in a row at my mom’s without me, and it’s usually just
1 or 2 nights. I expect it to be emotionally rough all around. I’m also
concerned about getting Sunshine to understand that she’ll need to be VERY
gentle with me while I’m healing. You see, Sunshine seems to think they’re hers
to do what she want with. Even though I weaned her at one, and I know she has
no memory of breastfeeding, she routinely reaches into my shirt for a
comforting grope. And when she wants to snuggle, it’s not unusual for her to
slam her head against a breast. OY! Any suggestions? I’ve talked to her little
about the surgery and how she’ll need to be gentle. I told her I was going to
have an operation, like she did when Dr. W fixed her ears and nose, and it
would make my back feel better. My little smart cookie asked if I’d be able to
sit on the floor to play with her after. Something she knows I don’t do much
because of my back. I’m not too concerned about not picking her up. She’ll have
to get used to hearing no on that. For at least a couple of months.
I’m excited, nervous, and
just wish the day would get here already.
Happy almost birthday to ME!
And here's a little random cuteness for you.
